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Dear Who Ever You Are,

It's been a month since the break up and everyday I check on her and everyday I see that she's happy. My friends told me to not stalk her accounts anymore but still I do everyday. I'm hard headed but I can't go on a day without knowing her day. She went to a club and I saw a picture that she was with her ex boyfriend. That destroyed me seeing her with someone that cheated on her four times. I almost called her the day after but I know for a fact that she's happy now and if I did call her about it, it will just create more problems for her and I don't want that.

Now, she's in the beach for the labor day weekend celebration and right now I'm still stalking her pictures. Yesterday, I saw a picture of my friend hugging her while she's red and I assume that she's intoxicated and after a few minutes the photo was deleted. I don't know what to feel about it but I remember last night I vented out to my friends that I had enough of this.... But a day has passed and I forgave her about it... Why am I stupid? Did you design me to be stupid? Every time that I want to give up, I remind myself the good things we had before like me waking up to her face.

I can't understand Your will but I'm ready to accept. It will be slow but I'm sure that I will accept all the things that I need to understand. Give me strength to do it. Please?

Love,
El