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Dear Who Ever You Are,

I'm not going to her event. It's too painful. Seeing her happy without you? I'd rather jump off a cliff rather than see that. I want her to be happy but I don't want to see her happy face to face. Am I being selfish? I want to show to her that I'm mature and if I go to that event I'll show to her that I'm her friend... But the sad truth is I can't be "just friends" with her so I wont go to the event.

What do you think? It's too painful to see her and her beautiful dress. I'm still in love with her, dude. I'm still in love with everything about her and I need to move on. So I'm not going. I'll just spend the day with my friends.

Please put me in the right path and give me the strength to hold whatever challenges that I'll face ahead. Right now, I'm in a state where I want to chase her and yet she doesn't want to get chased after because her life's better without me... So I'm gonna try to think that my life would be better without her.


Love,
El